UNINHIBITED

The truth is that this blog didn’t begin with an uninhibited self, but more so as a journey towards trying to share more of myself, outside of myself. I’ve taken it as a solid step towards what I hope will be a life spent being increasingly more uninhibited.

I noticed awhile ago that I tend to care too much about the way I’m perceived. There are many sides to my personality that I try to maneuver, twist and turn to correspond with other personalities, which in turn has me feeling like a wish-washy kinda human when I sit down and think about who I am, and whatever that may mean.

A friend I made in Warsaw showed me that sharing more could benefit not only myself but other people too. He suggested that there can be a lot of power in sharing those thoughts and experiences that I’ve been ashamed of. So, it may take time, but I’m going to keep trying to do that.

To kick-start this powered train, I’ll start by saying that I’m ashamed of the way I tend to have a desire to be desirable, of how I rarely agree with my diagnosis of having a mental illness, and how I’m self-reliant to a fault.

And in an attempt to balance out my shameful confessions, my desire to be desired directly correlates with my value of connection and being seen, my highs and lows make me more empathetic, resilient and relatable, and being self-reliant makes me brave.

I’m going to try to see the things I’ve been ashamed of as things that make me more human. I do want to be the best version of myself, but I don’t want to be a robot.

I hope I’ll be back with another post sometime soon!